Things right now are pretty simple. I have yet to experience any side effects from the Tamoxifen (Dr. Chui said most patients don't for about 6-8 weeks...) So I just go in from time to time and have needles stuck in my tissue expanders and saline added until I get the size I want to be for reconstruction.
My reconstructive surgery is scheduled for January 17 and it is an outpatient procedure. Dr. Hansen, my plastic surgeon, says the recovery is a "walk in the park" compared to what I've already experienced....here's hoping the anti-biotics don't cause a recurrence a c-diff!
Then, about two weeks after the reconstruction, my radiation treatments will begin: Monday through Friday for six-and-a-half weeks. The good news in all of this is that if everything goes according to plan I'll be done with my treatments (except for the Tamoxifen) inside of a year of my diagnosis.
And in other news: my hair is coming back nice and thick everywhere except my eyelashes (which, aside from my head, is probably the one place I wish it would come back super thick!) My fingernail is about 2/3rds grown out at this point...things are recovering nicely....
So I recently started thinking: Do I have cancer or should I say I've had cancer? I mean, my hope is that I had it--that at this point it's all eradicated from my body.
While I realize that it's really semantics, in some ways it really isn't! The weirdest thing is I don't want to say it in past tense because I don't want to tempt the fates, kharma, or what/whomever I might be tempting to slap me down and teach me a lesson. I'm oddly superstitious that way (you should see me when the Cowboys play...)
I guess until my treatments are over I'll just go with HAVING it, present tense, because the medical professionals are still behaving as though I do and that's good enough for me.
In other news, we had a Holiday Party at work last Friday night. It was great catching up with co-workers and spouses (even if it meant talking A LOT about cancer...) I do okay talking about everything up until the topic of having another child comes up. SO: NEW RULE: unless you want to talk to me about being a surrogate for Greg & I, I cannot engage in talk of having another child...it's too upsetting for me right now.
Also, I shouldn't be listening to Judy Garland sing "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas" this year. Even though it's my favorite, and she's my favorite, it pretty much makes me cry every time. Better to sing "I Want a Hippopotamus for Christmas!"
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